dilemma.

Is this called friendship?

a friendship that is more of a one way traffic?

a friendship that can hardly able to get help from?

a friendship that has loads of excuse given?

a friendship that only thinks of themselves first?

a friendship that complain and get irritated for when they cannot get help from you?

A friendship that complains and get irritated too when you ask them for help?

But,

they call you to meet you to school in the morning and going home together?

they listen to you talk all your problems and advise you on it?

they says things that meant well.

tell me about it?

what sort of friendship this is..

is it still worth keeping??

fun nite out.

okay. ytd's show was splendid. but someone made me really pissed before i reached douby ghaut and yet that someone can still make a call to ask how is his fcuking friend wen such incidents always happened and behaved and talked to his friend like nth has happened and he dun even bother and that someone cant even make it up to me. Yet, ive to make myself cool down my own way.gosh! and really need the movies to cool my anger. lucky everything goes well else i'll get really fcuking pissed and i dunno wad i'll do. and oh well,really cried like fcuk and scared like fcuk. i was so paranoid den. WTH! i even bite my bf while anticipating wads gona happened. ahhhh..hahaha. at least he came out alive. tsk. after tat wen to clark quay to forget about the show but my idiot bf jus tell my friends the scary movie story.gee! den headed home pretty late.yup.

the end

movies later!!

omg. for once, i decided to watch a scary movie for my entire life. i dunno if i am able to survive out. i meant my bf.HAHA!

SOOO EXCITED! but scared at the same time. gee! lol.

and my friend says sister's keeper can make you seriously cry like crap. oh mine!i cried like crap when i was watching notebook and now,sister's keeper.today's gona be a extreme emotional nite. cry like no tmr,prolly i'll have swollen eyes once i get out. and scared like fcuk later. so excitedd. hahahaah.i can feel the anxiety now.*increased HR and cold sweat.geee! CIAO

deodorant

i was during my PE elective logbook and i suddenly tot of the incident of stinky armpit smell.omg! i cannot take it myself! i smelt so bad during PE elective cuz i din do the regular regime to keep my armpit clean,i was rushing! late for class for the consecutive 4 days! WOW! that habit is really hard to kick.

so i was thinking there a treatment for my smelly armpit?i went to do abit of research under google regardless the causes and treatment of odor!

And guess wad i found!

Aluminum Chloride: Organ system toxicity, in vitro tests on mammalian cells show positive mutation results, reproductive effects at moderate and high doses, and animal studies show brain and nervous system effects at high doses

Aluminum Chlorohydrate: Developmental/reproductive toxicity, Neurotoxicity

Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine: Strong evidence of human neurotoxicity when product is airborn

Gylcerin: One or more animal studies show kidney or renal system effects at very low doses, mammalian cells show positive mutation results, animal studies show reproductive effects at moderate doses

Diproplyene Glycol: One or more animal studies show brain and nervous system effects at high doses

1 PEG-14 Dimethicone, PEG/PPG – 18/18 Dimethicone, PEG-8 Distearate, and Triclosan: Also known as 1,4-Dioxane: Endocrine disruption, identified as a probable human carcinogen by the U.S. Environmental Protection Agency (EPA)

Propylene Glycol, which the FDA says is safe for general use but can cause cancer and contains toxins that affect reproduction

Alcohol Denatured: Cancer, Developmental/reproductive toxicity, Organ system toxicity (non-reproductive)

Butane and Propane: Allergies and immunotoxicity

fragrance: often means Diethyl Phthalate or DEP: endocrine disruptor that has been linked to reproductive and abnormalities

PEG/PPG – 18/18 Dimethicone - Organ system toxicity (non-reproductive)

Benzyl Alcohol: Neurotoxicity

Silica: Cancer, Allergies/immunotoxicity

Deodorant with a score of 0 having a “low hazard”:

• Crystal deodorant stick, roll-on, and spray

Deodorant with a score of 1 having a “low hazard”:

• CVS Ultra Dry Anti-Perspirant Roll-On Unscented – Aluminum Chloride,
• Ban Antiperspirant & Deodorant Original Roll-On Unscented – Aluminum Chlorohydrate
• Ban Classic Original Antiperspirant & Deodorant Original Roll-On Unscented – Aluminum Chlorohydrate:
• Almay Antiperspirant & Deodorant, Clear Gel; Fragrance Free – Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Gylcerin, Diproplyene Glycol
• Almay Antiperspirant & Deodorant, Clear Gel – Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Gylcerin, Diproplyene Glycol
• Almay Antiperspirant & Deodorant Fragrance Free (Powder Fresh and Soothing Aloe) – Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Gylcerin, Diproplyene Glycol
• Lady Mitchum Clear Gel Antiperspirant & Deodorant Unscented – Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Diproplyene Glycol,
• Mitchum Antiperspirant & Deodorant Clear Gel – Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Diproplyene Glycol
• Almay Stay Dry Hydro Solid Antiperspirant & Deodorant, Fragrance Free – 1 PEG-14 Dimethicone, Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Diproplyene Glycol

Deodorant with a score of 7 having a “high hazard”:

• Right Guard Sport Deodorant – fragrance, Triclosan, Propylene Glycol, Alcohol Denatured
• Right Guard Sport Deodorant Aerosole, Original – fragrance, Triclosan, Propylene Glycol, Butane and Propane
• Dry Idea Antiperspirant Clear Gel Powder Fresh – fragrance, Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Propylene Glycol, Alcohol Denatured
• Dry Idea Antiperspirant & Deodorant Clear Gel Powder Fresh – fragrance, PEG/PPG – 18/18 Dimethicone, Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Propylene Glycol,Alcohol Denatured
• FDS Feminine Deodorant Spray White Blossom and Baby Powder – fragrance, Benzyl Alcohol, Propylene Glycol

Deodorant with a score of 8 having a “high hazard”:

• Secret Platinum Antiperspirant & Deodorant Invisible Gel Powder Fresh Scent – fragrance, Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Propylene Glycol, Alcohol Denatured
• Dove Invisible Solid Antiperspirant & Deodorant, Powder Fresh – fragrance, Silica, PEG-8 Distearate, Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Propylene Glycol
(taken http://tryingtobegreener.wordpress.com/2008/08/19/how-safe-is-your-deodorant/)

those above are the ingredients found in deodorant and anti-perspiration products and it says that products containing aluminium zirconium tetracholorohydrx glycine has major SE when use long term, the chances of getting Alzhemier disease is higher and pple who has been using that product before 16 has higher risk of Breast cancer as well. geeeee. i have been using this anti-deodorant for years already.mum's product is just for marketing purpose! URGHHH! tho the ingredient do work well and keeps me smelling great the entire day, but the best part is that it leads to Alzhemier in long term! no wonder i get really forgetful and have sudden memory loss. GOSH! lucky i stopped using it now. its harmful! just imagine it get absorbs into your bloodstreams,into your liver and everywer else? can u imagine?! its sooo cancer causing. my god! but of cuz i found a solution to my problem! crystal deodorant! the reviews and testimonials of it are great, so prolly gona haunt for that down! :)

ciao!

ouh. before that!

guess wad!

i have 7projects in hand! WOWWWW! HOW AMAZINGGGGG! 7 PROJECTS! damn it! so many.

nvm! im gona pull thru this semester distinction-ly. hahhahaha. alrite. CIAO

no water the entire day

gee, i was sleeping soundly until this morning, my brother woke me up cuz he was conplaining to his girlfriend that he cannot bath,der's no water in the hse and he is sticky and sweaty all over, he dun bath in the evenings like u and i do. he only bathe in the morning before he head to school.

and i was like wad? our house no water?gee.my brother headed to sch early to bath in school.lol. funny. while i went back to sleep. who else my 5mins of extra slp cost me 30mins! darn! late for school alry, faster pack bag,wash my face and brush my teeth with mineral water and rush off to sch. and shit lor! late 1min and i had to make up 1hr of lab session...wahlaoo. waste my time only.

so den, once i got home today abt 5plus, der's still no water. gee, so i rang my mum up and told her that our neighbour allow us to use their hse to bath. so sweet of them. :) and my mum was suggesting to go to the swimming pool to bath ourselves. lol. i was laughing out loud over the phone. this incident do make my day totally. hilarious!.hahaa.

alrity. back to doing my project now. byebye.

and i think i totally lost my self-dicipline, sighh. now i just kept losing and losing and losing. instead of winning and winning and winning. :(

im nothing and worse den before now.

ytd had lots of carbo,today had lots of carbo. i shld cut down on carbo now. and i overspent alot. im growing fat. gee.i nv gain the respect i needed.

merina jiayou!

new quotation of the day.

"do not say its all due to fate,der's nth i can do. change this mentality to this is a challenge,i will eventually get it done." merina ng

happy halloween. :)

"is that blood i am seeing?"

" look at that head,ew!" lol

"time to eat mummies" lol

" want to eat dyed red you tiao?" lol

"hello!"

"im gona be home with you tonite"

the stupid "princess" came up the tram and scare us! idiot. haha.our damn scared reaction.lol

damien says i look more like gorilla den a vampire. Zzz.. lol

leong

the "have you seen my glass shoes" cinderella. haha.my sis damn scared of her. lol

sis's angelic wings. cost 21$ lor! nice?? hehe.

Janet got stabbed on her chest!. haha

RAR! thats our makeup artist. lol.

spider-woman, "damien, becareful, she'll eat u anytime!" tsk

"rar... feeeedd meee." (vampire) tsk!

lol. poor bird got caught in the cage.haha

HALLOWEEN DAY

had great fun during halloween yesterday. :)

night safari was totally awesome too. ohwell, two besties cant go cuz of work. :(

working life totally suck rite?

well, thats the bad side of working. im really enjoying not working. hehe! especially FNB. omg.

HAPPPY HALLOWEEENNNN!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY!

HOPE EVERYONE HAD AS MUCH FUN AS I DID!

pics up soon! and i haven been updating since school starts. gee! really abandon this blog for awhile already!

screw up timetable. overcome-ed! :D

hello blog,

here i am blogging again, school started and my timetable is so screwed that i actually spent 2 full hours sorting out my screwed up timetable. at least i managed to get it sorted out.

now have to get that timetable sorted out during attachment as well. lucky this coming posting is at IMH. pretty near to my school. like 10mins to sch by car? if only ive gt a bike.

geee, bike licence next! tho many have told me abt how dangerous it is. ohwell, i jsut have to OPEN my eyes big big! and becareful lor, or the most i get a scooter. vespers haha.

and school is tough! i dun get wad the teachers talking, they talk like bullet train. :( i have a hard time catching up. im slow. :'( so stupid.

and i kept thinking of the horse riding lesson almost all the time ever since i said i wanted horse riding lessons. gee. i rather have my passion and love for something that is ALIVE den something dead like a "flying disc" seriously.

chosen PE as elective

WAH.

finally i got to choose my PE elective. :)

it din last on the E-online registration for even 5MINS!

muhaha. this time i owned. YES!

cheap thrill im having here.haha.

alrite. back to revision.

this sem i must be a good girl from on now.

adios.

PASSed my tp!

alrite. i passed my tp test alr! phew. but haven gotten my licence yet. gee. can drive car alry.

gona pray and bless the car before i drive man. der's so many things to learn, the way to getting pt A to pt B. gee.

and i suddenly tot of learning to ride horse. since young, i love seeing horses and riding horses. i feel like learning horse riding, den once i am god damn good in it, rich enuff to open up a horse riding school in some other country, haven tot of wer yet. having a ranch with premium horses, having a sheep dog, having my instructors, having students, having a house beside my horse riding school. wow.

best if i can ride my horse down to the market to buy groceries, riding my horse to school, having the horse on the road instead of bikes or cars. if only.. haha. that dream will not happen in i am now. gee.

and i guess frisbee shall be jus going for leisure thats all.

i want horse riding.

and i have yet to go for my scuba diving yet.

so many things to play while im alive.

bungy,sky diving, scuba diving with the sharks and whales, horse riding, parachuting, water rafting, fishing in the ocean to fish for sword fish,hot air balloon, be a killerwhale trainer, swimming with dolphins, water sports, more wakeboarding. sailing, getting a scrabble which i doubt i do have a chance(if only)

gee. see, life is more den jus hitting the mall, going shopping, catching a movie. that is not the kind of life tat i want. that isnt a life at all.

gona work towards it. earn more $ to filfull all my play dreams.

up next, horse riding lessons.

hopefully i have the passion to continue all the way, enquire all the skills and knowledge, i do wana be great in something. to be a professional equestrian .after that, earn enuff, go to overseas and open a horse riding school and own it.wow. thast really my dream. having pple to come over for leisure, having my own town with more stalls,can ride horse over to buy groceries etc. hmm.

dream oh dream. will it ever come true. hmmm.